No. I did not make it to the gym. I failed.
My "MoJo" is gone!
I feel so down and depressed. I feel bloated and uncomfortable. I have no energy.
Why do I feel this way??? I am no longer hacking up a lung by coughing. I can breathe again. My nose is not running or stuffed up. What's the deal???? I should feel GREAT!
Before I got sick.... my mind was on exercising and getting healthy 24/7 --- (well almost!). What happened????
I want that energy back. I want to feel ON FIRE about exercising!
I didn't even make it to 6000 steps yesterday. I did make it to 5587, which is better than I've done in a while, at least.
Today is Wednesday and it is raining BUCKETS! I won't be going to the gym before work, and I am not in the mood to exercise here at home.
Again.... my plan is to go to the gym after work today. Yesterday, I used the excuse that I didn't want to go grocery shopping after the gym... and... it was cold outside. I brought shorts to work out in and I didn't want to have to change back into my work clothes.
Today, I have nowhere to be after work. Hopefully, the storms will end before I get off of work, because if they are still bad (or worse!), I will want to come home. I don't like to be anywhere but home, when it storms.
I can't believe that I lost my focus!! I am mad at myself about that. Right now, I just want to cry!
I want to lose weight and/or inches before we go to the beach in early June. I don't want to be the "beached whale" again... or... look like I'm 9 months pregnant!! I am SO tired of looking that way!
Ok. Now I AM crying!
Please say a prayer for me that I can regain my focus and lose these pounds and inches that I want (and need!) to lose. I have roughly 9 weeks until the beach. If I can just lose a pound each week, I will be happy.
I am thinking about buying Jillian Michael's DVD called -- "30 Day Shred". A friend told me about it and it sounds like something that I could do. Plus... Jillian is my Fitness Idol. Since I rearranged my office, I have room in here to exercise now. I can plug that DVD into my computer and exercise in here. That has been part of my problem. I have had nowhere to exercise in my house without someone in the room!!! I hate that!
I get paid tomorrow, so.... Yes. I think I will be making a trip to Walmart!
Ok. I feel a little bit better now. I have a new plan.
Do NOT beat yourself up over this. Yes, you are better, but still after being so sick it is going to take some time to get your energy level back up. I know it's hard, but be patient, continue to eat healthy and your energy and mojo will come back. That is wonderful you have a place where you can go exercise without anyone being around, I know how important that is, I feel the same way. If you think you would follow the DVD, go buy it. Does your library rent DVDs? Gwinnett does and they have a lot of exercise ones, if your library does you could check some out and see what you like the best before you go out and buy one. OR you could make a copy.
ReplyDeleteTry and have a great day and I pray you make it to the gym or have the energy to exercise at home, even if it just for a shorter time. Start off slow and work your way back up, you will get there.
Remember you are awesome!
Thanks, Diana. I appreciate your kind words. I DID go to the gym, but realized after 15 mins on the treadmill and only 5 mins on the eliptical, that I don't have all of my strength back. I went to the locker room and packed up my things and went straight to Target and bought that Jillian Michael's DVD. While I was in there, I ran into someone that I know and she said that she really liked that DVD, too. So, now that is TWO people that have confirmed that it is good! ~ I'll be ok. Just have to take it slow, like you said. I am just frustrated. ~ Thanks, again.
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