Day 10 - TOTALLY FRUSTRATED

WHY WON'T THE NUMBER ON THE FRICKIN' SCALE
GO DOWN????????????????????

Yes, I am yelling!!

I honestly don't understand it! I am probably exercising more and eating better than I have in a long time... still..... NOTHING! No results for my efforts can be seen! I am literally, holding back tears right now.

I have been trying to do Weight Watcher's online, but I am HORRIBLE at keeping up with it. I am thinking about starting back to the meetings. I can't really afford it to go, but hey... right now... I am ready to scarface a little bit of money each week in order to lose weight! And... maybe by having to GO there and WEIGH IN each week, I will try harder to keep up with the points.

I cry every time I go to get dressed. My size 10's that I "was" wearing, are still too tight! I don't want to be a size 12!!! I want to be a size 10 (comfortably!) or a size 8, if possible. And... I know that it IS possible! That's the part the bugs the crap out of me!!!! I know it is possible and I can't get there!!! 

I opted out of going to the gym this morning, but I will go this afternoon. I am too upset this morning, to go.

I need to buy a new scale. I need a digital one. But, I am afraid that the digital one will depress me even more!! I am afraid that I will get stuck on the "point something's" ... like 165.2 or 165.6. I am afraid that I will FREAK (more than I already am!) if the "point" part goes UP!

I've gotta' go and eat breakfast and get going. Maybe I will see some results tomorrow. --- Ya, right!