Day 3 - Still Depressed

I ate pretty good today. No big meal, yet. Just small... fairly good-for-me-foods. I have also drank quite a bit of water and Gatorade.

I went to the gym after work. I was already tired when I got there, but I managed to have a pretty good workout. 

First, I walked on the treadmill for 15 mins on speed 3 and at a 2.0 incline. I forgot to see how many calories that I burned. I did not check my heart rate.

Next, I did the elliptical machine for 10 mins. I did level 2. My heart rate was an average of 137 and I burned 81 calories.

Next, I did these:

Abdominal - 3 sets - 50 lbs - 10 reps
Seated Leg Press - 1 set - 50 lbs - 10 reps (then I "upped" the pounds)
Seated Leg Press - 2 sets - 60 lbs - 15 reps
Glute - 1 set - 50 lbs - 10 reps (each leg. Then, I "upped" the pounds)
Glute - 1 set - 65 lbs - 15 reps
Hip Adduction (Inner thigh) - 1 set - 120 lbs - 15 reps (then, I "upped" the pounds)
Hip Adduction (Inner thigh) - 2 sets - 135 lbs - 15 reps
Hip Adduction (Outer thigh/hip) - 3 sets - 135 lbs - 15 reps
Back Extension - 3 sets - 65 lbs - 15 reps

I forgot to check my pedometer when I left work (and before I worked out at the gym), but after the gym... I had walked 6166 steps,  2859 of them were areobic steps. I had burned 186 calories and walked 2.33 miles. This was not as much as yesterday, but that is ok. I am exhausted today!!

Right now, my pedometer reads that I have walked 6564 steps. The areobic steps are the same. I have burned 196 calories and walked 2.48 miles. I don't think I am going to make it to 10,000 like I did yesterday. Of course, I could take the dogs for a walk or go by myself, but..... I don't know. I just feel like resting.

I am pretty depressed, too. I tried to talk to David about it, hoping that he would make me feel better.... but, nope. He didn't. I barely got an "I love you" out of him. I guess he just doesn't know what to say. He is now trying to get more "physically fit", so I am guessing that he will be bragging about losing weight soon. (Not that he needs to!) Ugh!! I just want to hear him say... "You look fine"... just once. But, unless I lose these 30 pounds (or more) that I need to lose... I'll never hear those words.

We are having a "Red Beans & Rice" dish for dinner. I don't even want to eat any. I know that the beans are good for me, tho... but, there is also a lot of brown sugar and molasses in the dish, as well. Maybe  will eat just a little bit.

I want him to hug me, comfort me and love me so badly right now. I feel so sad and depressed.