Fridays used to be THE BEST days!!
At my last job, I worked part-time as a preschool assistant teacher. I only worked 3, "half days" a week, T-W-TH. It was great!! On Monday, I would do all of my grocery shopping and errand running. And then on Friday, I would stay at home. I cleaned my house in the morning and then "played" in the afternoon! Friday was my favorite day!
This summer, I haven't had much money and I am trying not to drive my car too much because of the high gas prices. So... I have spent a LOT of time at home!! This is why Friday's aren't as special to me right now. They are like any other day. Although... I have been waiting until Friday afternoon's to go hang out by (and in) the pool. I don't know why, but it doesn't seem right to do that during the week. So, that is one thing that I do look foward to. It is supposed to be a rainy day today, tho. So, I may not get my afternoon in the sun. Boo!!
I am determined to get my car cleaned out this morning!! Yesterday morning got away from me and I didn't get it done. I got too wrapped up in downloading pictures into my computer.
I thought about inviting a friend over to hang out with me at the pool, but there is no one that I really want to hang out with right now. Well, except for my best friend in Atlanta. She is the only true friend that I feel that I have. She is the only one that I TRUST and the only one that I feel like I can truly talk to. Maybe I will call her today and just chat.
I briefly talked to my cousin, Chuck, on Facebook yesterday. He wants to get together again for lunch next week. I don't really have the money to spend, but I would love to see him again. Maybe instead of lunch, I can see if he wants to meet for coffee or ice cream (I have gift certificates that I can use!!).
I also talked to another friend of mine that I have known since High School. She lives about 45 mins north of me. We don't see each other as often as we should. She wants to come down here and go "thrifting" with me. I didn't have the heart to tell her that I didn't have any money to go, but I want to see her... so, she is coming down on Wednesday, next week. It will be fun to see her! Maybe.... since my other so-called "friendships" are dying out, she and I can start trying to see each other more often. We have a good time when we get together!
I wish I knew why I feel so depressed.
I never thought I would say this... but, I think I am ready to go back to work!! I am starting to look foward to meeting new people and maybe forming some new friendships. Although.... I am not holding my breath on that one! I have been disappointed WAY too many times!
Being at a new job and meeting new people will give me something NEW to think about. I think I need that. I need something to take my mind off of all that has been bothering me this summer. I hope that it will take away the "lonely" feeling that I have, too.
Ok. I'm off to start my day.
I'm so glad you are writing again, I keep checking back every so often to see if you have written anything. I was surprised to see that I had missed a whole week's worth.
ReplyDeleteSorry that you are feeling depressed, but remember it is temporary and you will get out of this funk. You do have positives in your life, try thinking of those when those dark thoughts start sneaking in.
I have it on good authority that your friend in Atlanta would love to hear from you and considers you to be a true and amazing friend. I don't know what those other people's problems are, but it's exactly what it is, their problems. they are going to have to figure it out on their own, they've messed up a good thing. There is nothing like knowing that when things are good or bad that you can pick up the phone and know you have the support you need and want.
I do believe you will make some new friends at your new job, none as awesome as this friend you know in the Atlanta area, but they will be friends none the less.
I hope you have a great weekend, and find something fun to do that isn't too expensive. Enjoy life! It's a gift from God that should be used and enjoyed.
Hi Diana ~ sorry that I didn't tell you that I was writing again. I had thought about starting ANOTHER blog for these kinds of thoughts, but decided that since I wasn't really doing what I set out to do on THIS ONE... I would just use it.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the support. I really believe that once I start working again, things will get better.
I didn't get to call my friend in Atlanta yesterday. The day got away from me. I ended up going to the movies with Miranda. We had a really good time.
And yes... my best friend in Atlanta is AWESOME! I really hope to see her soon!!